a spell for Joan

with intention, scrub
and expose the parts that
tell you normal is
only feeling love sometimes

or that if love is too good
it’s going to threaten you
until you keep your distance

with intention, scrub
and expose the parts that
make you want just a part
from a lot of whole women

who patiently thumb at
your tender band at
the maximum of just enough

with intention, scrub
and expose the parts that
connect and let in light
so you can sterilize

the decay, your negative space
inside that eats up your joy
so that you can’t savor it

with intention, touch
and take the residue left and
from the points of your ribs
and to your fingertips,

throw it forward
and away

June 2019